A tiny pair of shoes became a symbol of hope. A warm summer day about 6 years ago, I held a test in my hand and my heart filled with so many hopes and dreams as my husband Brook and I discovered that we were expecting our first child.We announced our news to everyone we knew and then after finding out we were carrying twins, I announced the news to everyone even if we didn't know them at all!
One of my favorite summer activities is to check out garage sales, and it became even more fun to look for baby items. I came across these shoes and felt an instant draw to them. I knew it would be a long time before we knew the gender of out little ones, but I bought them anyway. These shoes have been packed away ever since.
One thing unique to the journey of a pregnancy loss is the lack of many memories. Many grieving hearts cling to happy memories, but with an early loss, there are so few moments to remember. Many of these moments were never shared by family and friends leaving people at a loss for words. I didn't know if these tiny shoes would ever be worn, but they represented one of those amazing days full of love and hope.
Although our first pregnancy ended in loss, every little happy memory will be cherished. Today our beautiful daughter had these on her little feet. It feels wonderful to connect that memory to joy we feel today.
Note: It turns out those are not the right shoes, but my thoughts about them remain the same. ;)