An internal struggle has me feeling as though I should hold back our excitement. I have asked my self why. I think there is always going to be some fear about another loss, but I realized that my biggest concern is how our news might make other loss families feel. I know people say that it is best to wait to make announcements until a certain point in a pregnancy. The thought behind this is that the risk of problems goes down over time. From my experience, I found it incredibly helpful that friends and family knew about my pregnancies early on. The support I received after each loss was invaluable!
A friend who experienced a loss once told me that she went from almost hating other pregnant women, to seeing it as a sign of hope. I am hoping that my story can provide this sense of hope for others. So after that long explanation, I am here to announce, I am pregnant! I had my first ultrasound 2 weeks ago. The baby was measuring exactly where he/she should be. There are no signs of problems at this point! I asked about when I will see the high risk specialist and was told, "I don't see any reason that you would need to." I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
I had an additional ultrasound today. Everything was perfect! According to our doctor, I will be 9 weeks tomorrow. As he talked us through everything, he used the word, "normal" repetitively. I am not sure what to think of that word. It is definitely nice to hear. Just a word that will take time getting used to.
Ignorance is bliss, but a pregnancy following a loss has it's advantages too. Every day as I walk around tired like a zombie and nauseous as a child who spins on a tire swing, I am smiling knowing that each of these unpleasant symptoms is a reminder that my body is working hard to provide everything our little baby needs. Our goal at this point is to enjoy as much as we can about this pregnancy.
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| Our EDD is 4/26/14 |
Thank you all for taking this journey beside us. I really don't know what we would do without you!
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